latest results

8 04 2013

It has been a while since I posted but I thought it was time I set down and write.  I completed my surgery in January. I developed another staff infection which is now healed.  I completed my follow-up scans last week and I am still waiting on the final report from my oncologist.  My oncologist did say that there were some microscopic cancer cells in the enlarged nodes that were removed but the additional 15 nodes were clean.  What does this mean…..another wait and see what happens.  My ct scan showed a couple new growths in my lungs….not sure yet if it is cancer or not just have to wait and see. My lab work on the other hand was good for a change.   The whole wait and see is really the hardest part.  The unknown.  I have had a lot of fluid retention this time and gained more weight than I like but they reassure me this will resolve in about a year! I have constant pain in my abdomen and pelvis most likely from the scar tissue and yet I refuse to let this silly cancer get the best of me.

I have spent the last year having the doctors tell me we got it and then the follow-up scans show they did not get it.  I have had multiple surgeries, infections, and I still do not know anymore about the odds of my future than I did a year ago.  What does this all mean?  What have I learned?  I have learned that life is short.  I have learned I have an amazing number of friends and support.  I have learned that I am blessed with a great family both blood relatives, friends and co-workers.  I am still alive, I am still able to wake up each day and get out of bed.  I have learned that all the small things that used to upset me were just a waste of time and energy.  We need to focus on today, live in the moment and do everything we can and want as tomorrow is not promised to anyone.  We need to be thankful for the good things we have in our life and spend our days focusing on positive thoughts and know that no matter how bad things may seem there are always more things that are good if we just take the time focus on what we do have.  Life is a journey and it is up to us to make this journey exciting and interesting.  So its time to make that bucket list and start to fulfill your dreams.  One day you will look back and be thankful you enjoyed your journey and you will not have regrets for all the things you wished you would have done while you could.

Tomorrow is never promised to anyone

Dance until your feet ache

Laugh until your side hurts

Say I love you to those you love

for tomorrow may never come.

Life is short,

Time is fast,

No replay,

No rewind,

So enjoy every moment as it comes.

Live Life for the moment because everything else is uncertain…..Louis Tomlinson



2 responses

8 04 2013
Kay Reuss

You are one amazing woman and I am thankful to have you in ou life and all of us love you!

Kay Reuss

Sent from my iPad

10 04 2013
Patti Kain

You are so positive & I love reading your post. It really encourages me to live each day to the fullest. We don’t know how long any of us will be here. I’m just sorry you’ve been thru so much, and still don’t know anymore. Keep up the attitude you have, it is wonderful.
Prayers going out for you all the time.
Patti Kain

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